So Sick and Tired!

Never thought my life and turn to the worst...my relationship going to shit..job is shitty. idk anymore. Just want it all to change and get better. I guess that only thing that makes things a little brighter is Erilin.
           What do you do when you are in a relationship that you feels as if you are trapped in a small box with no air holes?
Do you try to escape or try to make air holes into the box to breath? Idk what my choice is because I have Erilin. If i didn't have her, i would choose to escape and never look back. But, I cant turn back time and do it all over again. Erilin is the best thing that ever happened to me....just the person that i care so much about turned into one of those guys that want a Housewife,,,,A Person to do everything that he wants. Sorry i cant not be that person my parents raised me to be my own person and never rely  on a guy. So why am i now? is it cuz of Erilin or is it because i truly care about him, Or is because i donut want to see him ever with another girl. Giving her happiness, when he cant do that for me, Because i am the person i am. I don't ever want to be a house wife. Only person I slave over is my child and no one else. I wonder if this will all change one day, that the care i have for him will leave and not return. Idk just so sick and tired of trying to show i am trying to work it out. But, he doesnt see that because he is hard headed and he was raised as if we are in Mexico or some other country.




Idk i guess life will end up unrolling it self, hopfuly its for the better.

growning up!

Yesterday finally put Erilin's pic book together, still got alot more to do. Looking at all the pics from when she was a newborn, made me so sad. My baby girl is getting so big right in front of my eyes. I miss her being so little, and now she crawling and trying to walk. she does most things by her self now. I love my little monster and i want her to stay little as long as she can. She 8 months and it seems like she was just born. In 4 months she will be a year and ill probably cry that day since she going to be a big girl.
 I do not regret nothing, I just grow and move on with my life. Erilin is the best thing that could ever happen to me. I know my life has gotten harder, and ill will have more bumps in the road, but im willing to drive over them for my little one.

I havent posted in a couple of days because ive been working and going to school. Last week was a very bad week, i c just got to stick it out till Eri birthday or when i find a WAYYYY better J.O.B. One thing i do like is the ladies i work with, they are real nice and they alway help me when they can. Work at 4 and i hope it aint slow cuz it going to be a boring day, and i pray there aint no big ass boxes that came in shipment. Becuase that means i have put them all up my self tonite. uh! :(

I guess thats how life is and Eri is the only reason i get through it all!
ant stand 3 ppl i work with. They talk about team work but they dont show it, idk

MOVE IN DAY:)

Started out slow, then ended out pretty good. Moved to day.....into the room right next door to mine! Me and my bro traded rooms, since there was 3 ppl living in a small little room and one person living in a biggggerrr room. It was hard to get him to changes room but finally its done. Well, just got to put our clothes in the closet, but that not till tomorrow. You wonder why im so excited about moving into a room about 2 steps away from my door. Well its sucks to live in a small room wit all my daughters and mine and my daugthers dad stuff, it frustrated me to have little space to breath. Now we are living in a much bigger room and my bro gots the little room.
Work tomorrow at 12 till 8, so have to go to sleep.
 Bye bye now :) and God Bless!

:( to :D

Yesterday was not a good day for me...everything went wrong.. first drama with my daughters dad, then I leave my lauch at home and then I go to get lauch and I find out i left my card at home. SOOO Pisssed yesterday. Erilin's dad can be the death of me sometimes, I dont understand anything that comes out of his mouth and what goes on in his head. idk, how someone can think that going to your friends house and say you are going to come home at 12 then change it till 1 and then not end up coming home all nite, not till the day later, is not a bad thing! Tell me how that is not, because it sure seems like im missing something!! If i did that he be flipping up a storm and be thinking im cheating and everything. Idk he need to see where im coming froma and idk how im going to make hime see it. :(
but, besides that today been wayyyyyyyy bettterrrr!!!.. worked was long and boring but that normal, but once i got home and saw my beautiful baby girl Erilin Isabelle my world turn to happyness. So excited my little one is fully crawling. :) so happy she been trying and getting mad alot. and now she finally just went for it and now she cant stop. lol everyday is perfect with her; everymorning i look at her I thank God. I still dont understand why he gave me such a wonderful baby girl. I dont feel like i deserve her, but i know he gave me her for a reason and like they say "He wont give you more then you cant handle" and Eri is alot to handle. Today Eri got to play with her little cousin angelo, she got really excited and wanted to hug, kiss/bite him and just didnt know what she wanted she just wanted to grap. it was really funny seen them together. Angelo is so calm and quite and Eri is loud and all over the place. I wonder how they are going to when they can both crawl and walk. It will be a funny moment most likely.

MY LITTLE ONE CRAWLING FOR THE PURPLE TOP! (1.14.11)

THERE SHE GOESSSS! (1.14.10)

Day Off!

Today im off of work, happy to just relax with my 2 main people. My lil monster Eri nd her daddy luis. i thank God everyday to have both of them in my life. Im am very lucky to have her dad in her life and in mine. Not a lot of young mothers have there baby's dad in there life, some dont even what to claim the kid. but im am blessed to have him. Even though we fight and yell at each other we still love each other and we still stick together. Our little girl need a stable home and parents that are going to love her and love eachother, and that is what we give her. To day Eri is 8 MONTHS OLD! YAY! This time 8months ago i was sitting in a hostpital bed going though labor. Now she sitting on my bed playing with her toys. love her so very much. she is my world, and so is her dad. 4 more months and she will be a yr old and probably walking and talking. She already whats to walk and dont like to crawl she just want to skip that and move to the next. I wonder who she got that trait from??? Mommy? Daddy? Only sad part is she is sicky. nose keeps running and fussy mood. She has my additude aboutn things. Right now she fussin at her dad because he getting her mad! lol. Gotta love the little monster!! :) Well have to go, my little monster is going crazy! bye now.

Life

My life changed May 12,2010, my wonderful baby girl was born into this world. Erilin Isabelle Moreno at 9:45 pm. Since then my life has changed, no more partying; no more not caring about what i do. With all the things I gave up, i have no regrets and i wouldnt look and wish to change it. Now my little girl will be 8 months tomorrow Jan 12,2011. She getting so big and wants to do everything by herself. I work and go to school so it is hard to to leave her every day. I wish i didnt have to but the world does not work that way.

I love you baby girl!
(this pic was taken at 2 days old) <3