Monday, January 31, 2011

So Sick and Tired!

Never thought my life and turn to the worst...my relationship going to shit..job is shitty. idk anymore. Just want it all to change and get better. I guess that only thing that makes things a little brighter is Erilin.
           What do you do when you are in a relationship that you feels as if you are trapped in a small box with no air holes?
Do you try to escape or try to make air holes into the box to breath? Idk what my choice is because I have Erilin. If i didn't have her, i would choose to escape and never look back. But, I cant turn back time and do it all over again. Erilin is the best thing that ever happened to me....just the person that i care so much about turned into one of those guys that want a Housewife,,,,A Person to do everything that he wants. Sorry i cant not be that person my parents raised me to be my own person and never rely  on a guy. So why am i now? is it cuz of Erilin or is it because i truly care about him, Or is because i donut want to see him ever with another girl. Giving her happiness, when he cant do that for me, Because i am the person i am. I don't ever want to be a house wife. Only person I slave over is my child and no one else. I wonder if this will all change one day, that the care i have for him will leave and not return. Idk just so sick and tired of trying to show i am trying to work it out. But, he doesnt see that because he is hard headed and he was raised as if we are in Mexico or some other country.




Idk i guess life will end up unrolling it self, hopfuly its for the better.

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